During yesterday declaration we discovered that Orin, Shelby’s
father, was raised in a structured environment, adopted those morals and
values, implemented most of them, added some of his own had done a fairly
decent job with parenting. He didn’t
raise an angel but he raised a respectful young man who was college bound,
respected authority figures, etc.
C2 on the other hand, was beginning to experience some
challenges with his son, Currant, that he had not anticipated. He felt like an idiot for robbing Currant of
the privilege of growing up in a godly home, especially now since his son
revealed that he didn’t believe in heaven, hell or God. It crushed him, he couldn’t breathe, eat or
sleep. Out of frustration one night he
cried out and said: “God, why did you let this happen to me.” God said absolutely nothing, he just sat back
on his throne, crossed his legs and folded his arms over his chest and sent a “blank
stare”. If I was God, I wudda said, “Niggah
please, go find quiet.” Just kidding, but not really (do I sound double minded :)) …
Tania not Tanya Nugget:
Yeah, he was worried about his son and rightly so but to blame God was
an absolute cop out, immature, irresponsible and unacceptable. It always amazes me how quick we are to blame
God for the things that “go wrong” in our life.
Like really, did God make you lay down with that woman or man, make a
bab(ies), let them raise themselves and then get mad at him? Really?
Especially when he NEVER told you to “hook up” with them in the first
place. Forget marriage that’s becoming
more of a thing of the past, especially with the Mosaic generation that
believes they should do what feels good, don’t consider the consequences. If it doesn’t turn out right blame the God
that you say doesn’t exist, demand his help and if he doesn’t answer within 3.5
seconds accuse him of being unfair. What
an oxymoron.
The more C2 thought about his son the more he felt “some
kind of way”. He was beginning to feel guilty, but not your normal guilty, the kind of guilt he was feeling was like overdosing on warm glazed donuts with an ice cold glass of milk kind of guilt it was hard to not to indulge. The more he thought about he realized he couldn’t pray the word over his son like his mother had done
him, not because he didn’t know how, but because of his self-imposed
restrictions. He remembered hearing his
mother humming throughout the day, no particular tune, just that recognizable
yet unrecognizable tune; she was up early every morning praying and interceding
for others; she prayed with him and his siblings before bed until they were old
enough to do it on their own; as they got older it was common for her to come
in their rooms, anoint them with blessed oil and pray over them while they were
sleeping (many times he was awake and as she prayed he played possum as stinging
tears of rebellion rolled over the bridge of his nose into the other eye,
slightly down his check until they met the pillow and formed a huge wet circle). He loved and hated her doing that to him both
at the same time because he would be “toe” up for the rest of the night Hon’Tee,
you hear me. Sleep would absolutely
escape him as he thought about his mother whom he adored and his raggedy father
whom he had grown to hate and God whom he was growing to resent. He didn’t understand why such a loving
mother, devoted wife, lover of people, committed woman of God could be with
such a raggedy, hypocritical jerk and God be OK with it. He and his siblings got beatings that were
completely unnecessary (e.g. they didn’t quote a scripture correctly at church,
mo the lawn when he said to, believing an adult’s accusation without even
bothering to at least listen to their side of the story, etc.).
At 17 he was taller than his father and
though he wasn’t as heavy, he had learned the skill and discipline of wrestling, intentionally asked to be matched with opponents twice his size and sweetie-pie, he was ready for him the next time he raised a belt
to him.
Fathers,
do not provoke your children to anger by the way you treat them. Rather, bring
them up with the discipline and instruction that comes from the Lord. Ephesians 6:4 (NLT)
As far as C2 was concerned his father had no integrity as a husband, father or a
preacher and he refused to spend another minute under Rev. Currant Tymes, I roof once he turned
18.
The
righteous man walks in his integrity; His children are blessed after him.
Proverbs 20:7 (NKJV)
It broke his heart to leave his mom, but if he stayed around
any longer he knew he would end up doing something to his father that he would
regret.
Foolish
children bring grief to their father and bitterness to the one who gave them
birth. Proverbs 17:25 (NLT)
The Holy Spirit tugged at his heart, he wanted to listen but
he felt embarrassed and he didn’t want to be one of those people who just went
to God because he was having problems.
Cast all your anxiety on him because he cares for you. 1 Peter 5:7 (NLT)
The primary difference in the results of these two fathers
was that Orin found a church for he and Shelby to attend based upon the need he
had for Shelby to be exposed to maternal nurturing in the absence of his
biological mother. The motive was right
but the outcome was completely opposite of what he expected. He clearly made a choice to take his son to
church as opposed to sending him but the results were well worth it, a personal
relationship with Christ, the perfect fiancé for him and a healthy relationship
with his son.
In closing I believe it is absolutely “spe-sha” (not special; “spe-sha”) for people to deny, ask and blame God for decisions we make
(without consulting him) and become angry because he doesn’t respond when we want Him to, if at all. Doesn’t that sound like somebody that has
multiple personality disorder? Make up “yo”
mind Hon’Tee, do you want God's help or not? If you do, there are expectations that must
be met, primarily a relationship with Him before you start making demands or should I say asking. Would you fulfill requests of people you have
no relationship with whenever they asked no matter what it was? Don’t lie, you know you wouldn’t, well I know I wouldn't. Then why would we assume God will? Come on, it’s not even logical, practical or
in good form. So what are you saying
Tania? The message is simple, God wants
to help us in every aspect of our lives, however there are conditions (just like there are with getting a loan, applying for government assisted programs, etc.); in return he just asks that you are in an authentic relationship him and you remain true to him. That’s it; that’s all,
plain and simple, a lot more simple than you may realize. It all comes down to choice.
I’m out of time …
Because of his undeserving favor
Tania not Tanya
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